I must admit that masturbation hasn't been high on my blogging topic list since I started. I guess for most guys, once we became fully sexually active, masturbation was just the fall-back mode between in-depth encounters (if you'll excuse the pun).
Sadly for me, our marital sex life turned out to be pretty 'lustless'. With my wife's almost zero libido, I doubt she ever masturbated herself in her entire life, and she definitely wasn't interested in masturbating me when she wasn't up for full sex. So masturbation turned out to be my normal modus operandi for over 30 years of married life.
But once my wife finally declared that she didn't enjoy sex, never had and had no interest for any future activity, I plucked up the courage to find sexual relief in the transactional sex world. With more regular sex, in the early days, my urges sky-rocketed, so masturbation provided daily relief until I had the time and readies for my next sex worker encounter.
But with age, my sex drive was declining so it became 3-4 weeks after an encounter before the urge built up again. Then the unthinkable happened, erection loss mid coitus. Age related ED had arrived.
I'll fast-forward over the next 10 years, including prostate cancer, radiotherapy and struggling with major ED and COVID isolation, which are covered in other posts.
With Viagra, cock-rings and regular masturbation with a pump and a sleeve, I can achieve usable erections and have gone for some 'test drives' with some age-friendly SWs. But regular sex has not been particularly successful with low feeling sensation and generally zero orgasms - paying for not much more than just a kiss-and-cuddle session isn't very enticing. Even with masturbation, with prostate radiotherapy and vasectomy, ejaculation volume is quite small.
With OK results from my first 'pocket pussy', I thought I would try up-market with a Fleshlight with built in vibrations. But frankly, it was a waste of money. I find the Fleshlight sleeve far too soft, almost squishy and the vibrations through the sleeve were minimal. So I have persisted with my original masturbation sleeve and find it's firmness in conjunction with a tight cock-ring, much more enjoyable.
Now with radiotherapy a few years behind me and after regular DIY therapy, I find with just a half dose (50mg) of Viagra, some good porn and self-talk and good lube, I am enjoying fucking my pocket-pussy more. After 5-10 minutes if I have not achieved orgasm and my erection is flagging, I resort to my penis-pump to get some erection back. I am now enjoying masturbation orgasms 2-3 times per week now. I've even enjoyed a 2nd 'shot' in one day, something that I haven't done for 15 years or more.
The most interesting and enjoyable change I find, is that with a tight cock-ring and the tightness of my pocket-pussy, I find my ejaculation is held in whilst I orgasm and I find my orgasms are pelvis and leg stiffening and shaking, not unlike some women's orgasms. The nearest like this that I've enjoyed was a lady who clamped her mouth around my glans restraining the ejaculation during orgasm, then an intense explosive finale. Definitely a first for me. Male orgasms are usually just the pumping sensation from the base of the cock only.
My masturbation orgasms are now sufficiently enjoyable, that my desire to go and find a suitable SW has declined, especially with the 'retirement' of my super-nympho best buddy. Further with my full-time home-care role for my semi-disabled wife, finding just a spare hour to get out for some 'me-time' is increasingly difficult.
So I wish all my readers a Happy Masturbation Month (of May and June and July and August ... and, well all year round).
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