When sex in one's marriage comes to an end, you are left with a turmoil of emotions. The decision to move forward into commercial sex might seem straight forward, but it is like the first time you stood on the edge of a diving board, petrified about taking the plunge into the pool.
"To punt, or not to punt, that is the question:
Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of celibate matrimony,
Or to take arms against a sea of scruples,
And by opposing end them? To fidelity: to begging;
No more; and by a fuck to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural aches
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To fuck, to come;
To come: perchance to ecstasy; ay, there's the rub."
(With apologies to The Bard)
NB: 'Punt': to take a (monatory) risk or gamble; in this context to take a gamble to pay for a sex worker. Fortunately, here in Australia, Sex Work is legal, highly regulated and safe, so the only "risk" is whether you will get the quality of sex you paid for or desired.